Random Writing 01

Well, basically, a random writing is when I write random short little pieces, which are usually only a few paragraphs long, and are not a full story. They're like, a part of a story, just that the story does not exist. ^^ So... Here's the first one! :)

There we stood, in the snow covered playground. It was freezing cold, we were shivering and our warm breaths were visible in the cold winter air, it was not unlike the day we met ten years ago. It was there, in that exact same spot, that we first met. We were kids back then, playing in the snow, having snow fights, making snow angels, and building snow men. We met at this playground ten years ago, and have been friends ever since. This was our spot, where we first met, where we had our dates, where we had our first kiss, and it seemed fitting that it would be where we confront each other.

We both stood there as the snow piled, just staring at each other, not speaking. The silence between us was as calming as it was nerve wracking. 'Silence is golden', they say. That thought doesn't linger in my mind a split second more, as many other thoughts flew through my mind. The silence dragged on until you decided to break it after much hesitation. I could tell.

"I'm sorry," you say, and those words were preciously bitten out, proof that I was more important to you than that pride of yours you swore was the thing you put above all others.

I just stood there, not saying a word, even as I watched you nervously fidget as you waited for me to speak. If it was any other situation, I would have found it cute, endearing even; but in that situation, I couldn't find it in my heart to forgive you. I could see all the emotions flitting through your eyes; regret, guilt, anxiety, worry, and love. You still loved me, and I knew. You know better than I that there is not one out there that could read you and understand you as much as I did.

I knew I was important, I knew you still loved me, but being the way I am, I felt the instinctual need to further test my importance in your world, as if an apology from you wasn't enough, because really, it wasn't. And so, I stared at you a little longer, hesitating on whether to say something or not, whether to give in to the side of me that wants to run up to you and hug away all the pain, or the side that wants to ignore everything you said and did. Eventually, I gave in to the latter, because what you did was really too much, and the pain of seeing you face was unbearable. Without a single word said, I turned around and walked away; away from you and out of your life.

If I were to ask myself now, I rather wished I had picked the former option back then. I wished I had forgiven you, even if just an apology shouldn't have been granted my forgiveness, even if I hated what you did, even if you didn't go after me. Back then, if you had stopped me from walking away, if you had said another word more, I was sure it would have been enough for me to forgive you for everything and start over. But you didn't, and how much I wish that you did.

Heechul's return, My studies, Henry, Ren and whatnot

Haven't posted in a while, but it's not like anyone's looking forward to what I post, so I can post it whenever I like. :3

First things first, I'd like to say: HE'S BACK. And by HE, I mean our dear Kim Heechul <3 He's finally out :D I know it wasn't just today, it's already been around 4 days, and his instagram is spammed with so many photos, to my delight. FYI, if you didn't know and wanted to know, his instagram is @kimheenim, go follow him if you haven't :p.

Heechul is back for a few days, even his wikipedia page is already updated :') He's already been on radios :') I can't wait till the subs come out. I know he's been on Sukira, I don't know about anything else though. :/ Do tell me if you know. I'm going to watch it as soon as I know it's out, unless it's during my End Of Year examination period, which starts next next week, right after the September Holidays, talk about stress :/

And not to mention, our common tests just finished, and soon we have EOYs. Sigh. My common tests results were terrible :'( 1 A1, 1 B3, 3 B4s, 1 C5, 1 D7, and 1 E8 so far. But since humanities are combined, I still have a chance to pass my E8 grade if I get B4 or higher for my other humans, which is kinda impossible :/ I dread thinking about studying for the EOYs :( There is waaay too much to study for. Studying for the common tests was hard enough, EOY includes everything we learnt the whole year round, which THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISS many topics to study for. :(

I've never really watched much of SJ-M, I mainly watched only SJ, but damn. The first time I saw Henry's Wikipedia page, I was shocked. Quote:

"While Lau's first language is English, he is also fluent in Mandarin and Korean. He can also speak Cantonese, a little Japanese and Thai. He also learned French in Canada. "

He speaks English, Chinese, Korean, Cantonese, French, Japanese AND Thai. Wow okay. Like WTH I struggle with just English and Chinese. To add on to it, he composes, he sings, he produces, he acts, he plays the violin, piano, drum, he raps, he beatboxes, he dances popping, ballet, latin, and breakdance. What does he not do? If anything, he would be the definition of multi-talented. I always knew he could speak Korean and English and that he could play both the piano and the violin, but not the rest. Surprise surprise. He really is way too talented.

Oh and talking about KPOP, I also like NU'EST now, and damn Ren is way too cute and pretty in Sleep Talking. What a way to bring down a girl's confidence level. I'm pretty sure he's prettier than most girls I know, if not all. I mean, look at him.

Are you not seduced?

I mean seriously, I can't wink as prettily and seductively as him, and I emphasize, HIM.

B.A.P Interview in Singapore

987FM's Dee Kosh's interview with B.A.P is up! Like, finally! I've been waiting since yesterday, or, well, since they said they were going to interview them x.x I was so excited about it since it was in Singapore, so it's different! It's special. :p

Here it is (with Eng subs):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmteHcwSGFs

Comments on the interview:
For some of the questions, they only showed some of the members' answers, cutting out others...so...

Oh and for the question about the first trait of a girl B.A.P would look for, Dee Kosh did mention one of them saying the ass or something like that, and it so happens that only Yongguk's answer was removed... ;)

That awkward moment when Dee Kosh was speaking and B.A.P didn't understand anything so they just sat there staring. Haha.

Apparently many questions were rejected by the managers(?), that's why there were so little questions :/ And it was so short T.T

According to Dee Kosh, they were nice, and humble, and the most handsome to him would be Youngjae.

Well, that's all. I was expecting the interview to be longer :/

B.A.P, 987FM

8.48p.m. - Dee Kosh briefly mentioned B.A.P, saying that they were nice, and it was interesting how they were managed or something like that, and how the interview went. He said that he would talk more about it later.

Dee Kosh's twitter (@TheDeeKosh) - referring to B.A.P :)

9.55p.m. - Dee Kosh said that he would tell us his extremely 'interesting' and 'weird' experience (in a good way?) very soon. I can't wait till the video of the interview comes out!! He said that the interview was the most 'interesting/weird' one he has ever experienced.

10.20p.m. - There was a translator, they didn't speak English, they were extremely tall for their age, Dee Kosh's 183cm (?) and they were so tall. They were very formal, bowing and everything. Manager was strict, even about taking photos, having to touch up their make-up.

"What they noticed about girls first" - someone said 'bombom', in Dee Kosh's words.

They were happy that their fans, Babyz, worked so hard to trend their song, etc.

10.24p.m. - B.A.P's Badman was played on 987FM.

That's all that was mentioned about B.A.P :( I'm still waiting for the video to be uploaded/released.

Edit: Apparently the video is gonna be released tomorrow because the file was too large :(

National Day, Hari Raya and B.A.P Singapore

Firstly, I'd like to wish everyone a happy National Day and Hari Raya! :)

Today was a half day, celebrating National day and all, and then we now have a four-day long weekend! :D The only downside is that common tests are coming soon and I'm supposed to be studying, but meh :p common tests are in two weeks, I'll study next week. Besides, my parents aren't the kind to nag about studies. I don't have homework~~ :D My school's National Day performances only have watching videos, our school's talent competition (which was a complete failure), and singing some songs. Meh.

More importantly, B.A.P IS IN SINGAPORE TODAY. They were in City Hall mall and I couldn't be there T.T they're having a concert tonight and the tickets are too expensive for me to afford ;'(. Sigh. So the only thing I can do is to listen to 987fm and to find that video of that interview Dee Kosh had with B.A.P, I WILL FIND IT (apparently it can be found on 987tv). SAD T.T I will forever remind myself that no matter what, in the end, I'm just one of the many millions of fans they have, just one. I'm nothing. :(

Yes, I'm just listening to 987fm, just to see if he talks about B.A.P. I hope he does....

Photo of B.A.P, courtesy of my friend who went to see them :)

Touching incident

Tomorrow I have social studies and English tests. Haish. English don't really need to study, SS I think just read through okay liao.

Today, my level had a badminton interclass, and I went to watch. I have a classmate, normally very mischievous and playful, he's from the badminton CCA, the only badminton player in our class. Maybe he feels some sort of responsibility, maybe it's because he wants to play, but he still came to school today, spending more than half of the day in the sick bay, and looking pale.

He played in all the matches we had today, winning some, losing some, but obviously the fever was affecting his accuracy and control. And I think he felt bad for losing, yet he was still teased. He was sweating like hell, lips and face extremely pale, and yet still refused to stop playing. Sometimes being too stubborn isn't too good. At times like this, I wonder if he prefers people acting like normal rather than caring too much, because he was acting as if nothing was wrong.

One game consists of one male doubles, one female doubles, and one mix doubles. I was in the last mix doubles with this sporty guy from my class, and I feel so bad for losing. We lost the male doubles, won the female doubles, and I lost the mix doubles. And my partner was being so nice about it. T.T thanks for being so kind. I kept saying sorry...*sigh*

Anyways, at the end, he took his temperature again, and it turned out to be 39.5 degrees cellcius, and that's waaay too high to be doing sports, but he refused to go home.

There was a major jam at the bus stop, and his best friend had offered to bring him home, since they live so close by. Me and my friends offered to pay for the cab fare. But apparently, due to the jam, they couldn't couldn't find any cabs or buses. Then they had to call his father to fetch him, so he had to go back into school to wait.

That brings me to the thought, if he had a fever since yesterday, why did his parents allow him to come to school? Was it because they didn't know? But he went home midway through school yesterday, yet came to school with a fever today. So if they know, do they want him to come to school despite that? Or do they not care enough, and coming to school was his choice?

No matter what, I guess I kinda admire him. Coming to school despite being sick, pressing on despite his high fever, and yet managing to act as if nothing was wrong. Really, first time seeing these kinds of situations in reality.

B.A.P SINGAPORE, #987askBAP Questions

B.A.P is gonna have a Live on Earth Singapore and I CAN'T GO T.T I'm so freaking sad right now :'( *Sigh* It's on a school day night so what can I do :/ It's on August 8th. Sighs. So close to National Day.

Apparently Dee Kosh from 987 fm is going to interview B.A.P *insert squealing*. BUT. I don't know when it's going to be aired or whatever, unfortunately :(. But what I do know, is the questions going to be asked in the interview ;). Found on Dee Kosh's twitter account, @TheDeeKosh. Today, on Twitter, #987askBAP was trending fourth worldwide :D Yay.

Well, but Dee Kosh said that there are 12 questions, and I found thirteen, so I'm not sure which isn't included, but I'm sure he mentioned all of these :/ Well, roughly those are the questions! ^^

If you wanna see some other interesting ones, you can just go to twitter and search the hashtag #987askBAP. There are some questions which would be nice if they answered but didn't get picked, but I had no time to go find anything else. It's 11.34pm, I'm mentally exhausted, I need to bathe, and I need to sleep. I still have school tomorrow, 2 tests!! >< So goodnight and goodbye :)